Monday, January 2, 2012
This is the day I have to wage war against the demons of anxiety about chemo tomorrow. Today, and the next few days are the toughest every month. Forces outside of me wanting me to feel like a dying sick woman. Forces within me set to attack those on the outside, but with sleeplessness from steroids, they struggle sometimes. I have high needle anxiety about tomorrow already. Today I have pleurisy on my left side, which is becoming very painful, and making the emotional war tougher. Please pray for the pleurisy to subside, the catheter might be inserted the first attempt, and that my mind can stay focused on healing. It is a delicate dance, staying emotionally where I need to be to live life. Thanks.