Friday, September 28, 2012

PAIN

I am slowly getting to the point of wondering if the chemo is worth the painful side effects. I have faith that God will heal this incurable cancer with or without chemo, so, I ask myself, why am I living like this? My pain threshold is pretty high.....always has been.....but my knee and both legs are so painful every step, every hour, every day, that I find myself pulling back from life. Pain really does change you. I try not to complain about it-----Dick gets the brunt of my frustration----but I am starting to wonder about quitting the drug. As the pain intensifies, the decision gets easier.

I have worked every day this week, and am very ready for the weekend. I need a couple days to vegetate.

3 comments:

Pipsylou said...

praying...

Cole said...

I am praying and trusting exactly what you said, God can heal with or without the pill. I know how much of one's life pain can rob, and how it can change the person staring back from the mirror into an unrecognizeable stranger phyically and mentally. I know this has been a struggle in your mind for quite a while now and I'm standing in faith with you! Love you!!

Anonymous said...

I am hugging you right now, and wishing the pain will ease.
Love you buddy
Jo